It is confirm[] (confirmed) that UAE is my Lance.
I can have many sets of Shogi At least I have one Superpowers set and one Superstars set.
I will not reveal all, However, the members of Al Araf 7:7 are are in both sets.
If in the past, I sounded like I was lying, I apologize. I always pride myself as Sine Sera.
It sounded that I am lying. The truth is, whatever I imagine is already real to me.
Like the Buddha said, with our thoughts we create our world.
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Certainly, the most [] (basic) decision is to delight the Universe Within.
The other decision is to forgo indulgence.
Even when I tried to accomplish these, it is very difficult to follow the routine.
War is unnecessary. Especially in this case... Just liberate the 2 separatist states; Luhansk and Donetsk.
Sarah, this is really a sticky situation to be in. On one hand, I had accepted that I am nothing more than a subject of my imagination. On the other hand, there is evidence that I was created for a higher purpose.
Although, in the end, we are talking about form is form and emptiness is emptiness, the good duration of the journey is a situation of both apple and no apple.
So as a whole, I have to maintain remarkably independent. I cannot rely on external input anymore. People have a tendency to interpret my model to what they believe in.
If I am not careful, the interpretation of the masses may lead to a misguided manifesto.
That is why I am very careful to interpret my ideas into a manifesto that can be interpreted into a storyboard.
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So it goes, back to basic. Back to drinking copious amounts of drinking water.
All these are for a sound mind and a sound [] (body) in order to achieve health and happiness.
In translating [the] the result, that means I need to:
I would say that today is the warm-up session:
True enough, it starts with a goodnight's sleep.
I had managed to regulate my body chemistry. So there is no hunger while I OMAD.
It seems that we had sorted the most complex part of this illness; which is the delusion part.
As long as I don't intentionally *pla[y] (plan) to swindle people, I take it that is part of the illness.
* Hey, how appropriate:
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Yup, I remember that I want to simply write whatever comes to mind and follow the argument wherever it leads.
At this point, I don't know which is fact and which is fiction
In this case, I consider myself a fictional writer due to my inability to differentiate between reality and imagined.
To me, what I imagined is already real.
It is no big deal as long as I can live my own fantasy.
For example, I will continue to believe in the Swiss Samurai Cyborg and SJA.
These are not delusions but are models.
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I need this cocooning stage.
The challenge is to stay on course. until I reach the 21 km Els Dines Bukit Kiara Run.
Therefore for the next 3 years, I need to stick to the plan.
The other day, when I was exercising, I felt very uplifting.
So I decided to consistently take Zyprexa until my sleep is regulated again.
Losing sleep routine is really a mess.
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So many challenges had happened. All I care about now is to ma[g]e (make) it to Ramadan with 4HAD and OMAD. I was so off-tune that I think I am much operating like a drunk.
Such is the effect of the medication. It's all about balancing Brain Chemistry.
Until I manage to do that, forever I have to compromise on my sleep.
So, Sarah... I am not the most politically correct person. However, I am doing my best to get well.
It is a tricky illness.
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Come Ramadan I *go[d] (got) 3 months to move up to speed.
Certainly, the time is now. I slipped today because I thought today is Sunday.
* Sigh Sarah, you never stop believing in me. What's with you hon?
I know, you are turning into a raving fan.
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These 2 months are my worst time ever. During the whole duration, I was experiencing writer's block.
It's the closest to the state *[of] of being stupid.
* I see, you had experienced it before.
The other thing that worries me is the 20 kg weight gain last 4 months.
Abdullah Yusuf Ali: (Saying): "Eat of the good things We have provided for your sustenance, but commit no excess therein, lest My Wrath should justly descend on you: and those on whom descends My Wrath do perish indeed!
Surah Taha ver. 81
Good things happen [] (to) those who wait
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As I told you, Quran means different things to different people. To me, it is a Book of War and a Book of Magic,
Personally, I use the strongest spell:
That is my decision. I want to remain on my own. That way, I can keep things to myself.
Too many complications. I admit I was delusional most of the *[mine] (time).
* At least you understand the nature of the illness.
What can I say? I need the neurotransmitter to remain levelheaded. That's why I am back to fapping. That is to increase the flow of dopamine.
This is my fight. You may not understand the complexity until you cross the bridge. I need to balance the illness and the medication. Both are bad.
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It doesn't create the rippling effect.
As a whole, I see a big miss in terms of the lesson learned.
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Delusional disorder, previously called paranoid disorder, is a type of serious mental illness — called a “psychosis”— in which a person cannot tell what is real from what is imagined. The main feature of this disorder is the presence of delusions, which are unshakable beliefs in something untrue.
As for my delusions, I still insist that with my thoughts I create my world.
Therefore, I shall continue believing in my own epiphanies.
After all being said and done, I concluded that all this while my communication is with myself and those who sympathize with my plight.
So be prepared to accept that what I wrote is the creation of my thought.
I don't know how else to explain the situation. I write as I see it. So if *[] (what) I write is not true, is that lying?
* The doctor once asked, do you prefer to continue being in delusion?
I didn't answer her but in my heart, I said yes.
You all saw the magnitude of my imagination. I can continue living like this for the rest of my life.
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Of course, I am sad that I cannot differentiate between fantasy and reality.
So looking back, I need to start from somewhere fresh.
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The best way to deal with delusion is to accept that I was delusional. Nothing much I can do.
Another way is to remain in isolation.
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I was stuck in a paradigm and to move out of the paradigm I create my own rules.
That is not lying, that is back to; With my thoughts, I create my world.
That is not living a lie. I personally think that I was being *[being] delusional.
* Thank you, Sarah. I pride myself on being a Sine Sera person.
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Now that I know I am delusional, I decided to live in my own world.
I shall live on believing there is SJA and Swiss Samurai Cyborg.
The reason is I am seeing people aligning to me like TraXX and Astro, I [] (am) also seeing things like the formation of the Mobius Strip which in this case led to the alignment of House of Two Swords.
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I figured the best approach is stealth mode.
I had not analyzed my own information flow.
Looking things through, I say in general I am a Sine Cera person who is prone to use deception as a tactic.
As much as possible I try to be honest with my outlook. Those unsubstantiated statements are just me filling in the blanks.
As I mention, what I can imagine is already real to me. These are not lying. This is, With My Thoughts, I Create My World - The Buddha.
T[hat] (Take) the example [] (of) Susan. Before this that Susan doesn't exist. Now, not only there is Susan, but the Swiss Intelligence Network (SIN) too. That's what I mean by the Buddha's word.
So many things I created with my thoughts.
I don't think I want to recline that kind of thinking.
At best I will follow my instinct when comes to Swiss Samurai Cyborgs and SJ&A.
If there is nobody there, Sarah you better tell me now.
So there are Swiss Samurai Cyborgs and SJ&A.
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Truthfully, I have no intention of lying. I wrote as I saw it.
If I am guilty, th[a]n (then) is I am guilty of writing fiction.
So my guilt is I wrote fiction and I believe in what I wrote...
Certainly, it is not a crime. Nevertheless, I have no credibility at all.
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Here is the verdict;
I lie to everybody that I knew
My fictions are stories of lies being positioned as truth.
I have no credibility
At best I say I am deluded
At worst I am a compulsive liar
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The truth is, whatever I believe is real to me.
It is as if I purposely lie. The truth is I was telling the story as I see it.
In summary, BELIEVE AND ACHIEVE
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