Along the way, I will uphold the notion that EVIL IS AN ILLUSION. That is with the exception of the evil that men do.
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Monday, 31 January 2022
1/2/22 ###Certainly there is God and this god is fair
Yes, it is proven.
Reminds me of Mr. Plankton - "Hanya dengan mata aku boleh jadi raja".
Not on my watch.
As long as I know who I am, this is my outright reply:
Thanks to the multiple counselors...
Masing-masing dapat bahagian masing-masing.
Power corrupts but absolute power is absolutely delightful.
All it takes is for me to align to the Sharpest Sword and the Biggest Sword, presto!
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1/2/22 ^^^World Class Game since 1999
I know Sarah, tell me about it.
Yes, Tetrahedron.
I can wait. My priority is Athlete4Life.
Truly, out of the Many, One.
I hear you loud and clear Sarah.
What can I say?
I will stick to my mission.
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Now the questions change.
Back to being small.
This is indeed a time of turbulence.
Right, drop.
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1/2/22 ***Let's stay focus on the mission
Let's sort out the secure attachment issue. We settle at the Sharpest Sword and Biggest Sword.
The sooner the better.
These next few weeks, it will be Sword 9.
Right, no turning back.
Not even a goodbye.
This time, SNAP VANISH.
Say, Sarah... Reestablish order.
I am keeping it really small
In the end, my mission is to delight the Universe Within.
Sufficient I am aligned to Sword 9.
Wooowhie! Out of Many, One.
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Right, now that we sort that out... Keep *you[] money and the whole works.
* Thanks.
So you notice, the proof of concept works.
I had given the business model.
Now, I am only interested to pursue Athlete4Life.
The rest is really up to you guys.
If you ask me, my standard is Athlete4Life.
AHAD
5MEH @ 5 Hours
OMAD
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OK Sarah, no more distortion.
What are you really been up to?
If I survive this, this is my ideal. Unless you have other plans.
OK good.
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>>>#1/2/22 ***Crossing over to a new era
No regret at all the past four years. Of all the things I achieved is I had loved like I never loved before with Els. I had given like I never gave before. I am so PUAS. I finally had given my heart's out.
I am ready to let her soar. To reach a new height in her new relationship.
I am so PUAS, PUAS, PUAS.
Finally, I know how big my heart is.
This is it. Absolute Contentment.
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#traxxfm Here is to you my Dream Girl, my Queen of Laughter, and my Miss Sunshine 2022journeymanvol1jan-mar.blogspot.com/2022/01/1222-c
Absolute Contentment.
31/1/22 ^^^BEGINNING OF THE WATER TIGER
Back to the Tetrahedron.
Scope: Athlete4Life
Deliverables:
- Exercise AHAD
- IF 18/6
- No second serving
- No more meeting BJ
What is the lesson learned?
Sweat is currency of Sparta 4964.
Back to things I can control.
Let's build the building block to Athlete4Life:
I am never this serious come Chinese New Year.
Basically this year I am truly a Warrior Walks Alone.
All efforts to develop One Tribe is a failure.
Now is back to run, run, run and run.
The challenge is TOTAL ISOLATION.
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Actually, it is a mindset shift.
There is no such thing as Total Isolation.
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31/1/22 ^^^In the end, we are back to where we started
What is that? Knowing the place for the very first time.
What does it mean? To me it is nothing more than the hypothesis that there is God and He is fair. If nothing happens by 24/12/24, I have to write that hypothesis off.
That to me is worth the wait.
If after all the sacrifices I had made and I still don't get paid, then obviously there is no God. Let alone a fair God.
Then from there, I just be a good animal.
Actually, God or no God makes no difference to me because a god is a man fully functioning.
Therefore, all I care is if my offering is acceptable.
So, what do I appreciate the most?
Who I love and who loves me.
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#traxxfm Honey, actually I wanted to say that I appreciate your company: 2022journeymanvol1jan-mar.blogspot.com/2022/01/31122-
Somehow it gets long-winding. Happy CNY.
31/1/22 ^^^This is a total satisfaction
Here I am totally contented just by attending to my imagination, why do I want to get rid of that?
As is I am pretty happy having Sword 9 singing sweet nothing to me, why take away that pleasure?
Same thing with having Els as my Dream Girl.
All I know is M-F I get my cup filled for four hours a day listening to her.
Keep rules simple.
Other than that is play of the mind.
Since that is the case, I can choose to accept or reject.
If I want to play according to the rules, I say I have a mental illness and move from there.
Not too exciting.
What I like to do is commit to what was agreed and I carry on with my journey as Athlete4Life.
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Here is the acid test: is it within JANGAN CARI PENYAKIT and JANGAN SAMPAI MELAMPAU? As long as it is, then I have nothing to worry.
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31/1/22 ***OK, let's decide now
2024 is the year of Athlete4Life
Anything more is a bonus.
I can always rewrite the story.
So I scrape everything and start from the basic.
From nothing.
My capital is with my thought I create my world - the Buddha.
From there...
Then I build the three premises:
- Exercise AHAD
- 18/6 IF
- No second servings
As a key consideration - no meeting BJ.
Let's build on these premises AND Sword 9 Discography.
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A quick win; whatever financial commitments had already been agreed and due in 2024. That is account receivable.
So I can more or less set aside the financial commitment and focus on my commitment to Athlete4Life.
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Even if nothing works, I still hold on that there is a God and this God is fair.
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31/1/22 ^^^I need to have a purpose
Basically the purpose is the Athlete4Life.
Motion creates emotion.
This is the test for me. I am to pursue Health and Happiness.
If I can survive Health and Happiness, I am back to pursuing Sound Mind in Sound Body.
This time is the most crucial. Until I can establish Sound Mind in Sound Body, I need to condition myself by rote to remain positive.
Nobody can pull the act except me.
The worst prison is the prison of the mind.
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So this is where I am right now.
OK let's establish order:
- Number 1: I need to exercise AHAD again
- Number 2: 18/6
- Number 3: No second helping
That is the basic requirement.
That is as low as I can get in Athlete4Life.
The ilthizam for this CNY is not meeting BJ during the holidays.
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So, to cut long story short, as long as I am in pursuit of a worthy ideal, I am still a winner.
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Sunday, 30 January 2022
31/1/22 ###This is no longer about belief, it is about what is useful
Before I proceed, I like to note that I had gone to the very extreme and still it is possible to be logical about it.
Therefore, the logical limit is only set by us.
In this case, I believe in what is useful.
Having said that, I had done my best. I am very sure I am not delusional about Global Telepathy 2024.
Thus, I know who I am.
31/1/22 ###If I want to get well, I have to do away with hallucination?
Is that the issue?
That's what I overheard the doctors were saying.
Let's explore that.
All the while it is delusions of grandiose.
I can do away with that... Just take out Global Telepathy 2024.
Therefore, 2024 is just my personal glory as a Wood-Dragon.
That is good enough. As planned, we have Tomahawk Beef and seafood in one of the bistros in Bangsar on my birthday.
This means, I still train to run 21 km Bukit Kiara Hill Run.
In this case, everything I got is towards the run.
Also towards the Statue of David 2022.
Nothing personal, Global Telepathy is a General Flight Path.
I need to focus on my Personal Flight Path.
This is good enough a goal for me:
#traxxfm Maybe Global Telepathy 2024 is just my delusion of grandeur.
So I decided to scope to 21 km Bukit Kiara Hill Run and help myself with these on my 60th Birthday. No worries at all.
IF I was delusional... Am I?
Very simple... We start with the Seed of Greatness. We can always go back to that point.
Regardless how far we move forward, we can always go back to the start.
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In a way, I followed to where the argument leads. It get's more and more ridiculous.
Therefore today, I am back to my initial plan to pursue Athlete4Life.
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31/1/22 ***A healthy man is a happy man
All I need to do is manage to be in solitude. That's all...
This is the test. If I can manage to be away from BJ, I am a champion.
BJ means dope. I don't need dope.
Dope may not be physically addictive but it hijacks oxytocin.
#traxxfm Hi Mr. Innuendo, I am shaking off my only best friend for 40 years just so that I don't smoke dope.
Normally I see him every 6 months or so. So after today, I don't even have a best friend. You better be worth it
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