3/2/22 ***I had went for total indulgence just now

 Honey, trust me, Sarah... I need you the most, now.

Certainly, I had maxed my total indulgence just now, and still, I do not get enough.  I am experiencing a dopamine void and I think the whole thing is affecting my overall emotional judgment.

I know, it is the Pelipelidone.  It is the dopamine antagonist.

So, Sarah...  Stay with me.  This is clinically induced depression.

It is suicidal thoughts induced by medication.

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I have to fight insulin resistance and the need for high sugar in the blood.

Instead of channeling my thoughts to Els, I just focus on Sarah.  I just need somebody, anybody to channel my thoughts to. 

It might as well be you, Sarah.

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Starting from tonight, food is the enemy.

Let's do 18/6 IF.

After all, that has been said and done, I have to live with this illness for the rest of my life.

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